Depression + Insonmia

Its been more than a week that i cant sleep and eat. I was suppose to move to a new room~yet i felt unhappy and doesn't feels like moving in. Out of sudden i gave the owner a call and cancel the rental..Am i too impulsion? I'm ok with the house on the first and second visit but not the third visit. I might be too sensitive but i really felt pissed with that house. Fortunately we haven signed contract due to the irresponsible owner. Should i consider myself as lucky or unlucky? Why m i so tragic!

I'm extremely stressed up where i have no one to talk to! I'm not emo..it's just too much things for me myself to handle at the same time. I need to call up BT to hold onto the phone line and broadband. Simultaneously, my housemate who wants to stay with me did nothing! I should admit that i'm the stupid one and she's the smart one coz i've been doing everything from house searching, house viewing, dealing, confirmation, calling, contract, cancellation, start house searching, calling, emailing, house viewing. I'm going insane. People might thought that i've extremly free but i'm not. Sigh..

Rite..after the grandmother stories back to my updates..I just sent my housemate off last week as she's returning back to china for good. She's my cookin companion! a good cooker. To be honest i do missed her although we do not spend much time together still she left me some good memories. At the moment i'm confident only in baking oreo cheese cake so I made her a oreo cheese cake. She bought me a teddy chocolate and dinner a day before she left. Makes me feels like crying..I'm lonely..

BeefGourmet~

Oreo Cheese Cake~